Consider Me Gone

Life can only get harder once you've had a taste of the good times. And having someone in your life is even harder.

Sometimes it's hard to think about your life without this certain someone, yet there are times when you wish they weren't with you so you can go on with your life without having to worry about that person. And then there are the times when you wonder why they're even staying with you because they can say the worst most horrid things to your face without even regretting it. It's so hard to think clearly and have family put in their opinion at the same time. Sometimes I begin to second guess myself and I'm finally beginning to realize that I'm my own person and nobody can tell me what I am, what I mean and who I am.
I'm the girl who cares too much about people, the girl who literally wears her heart on her sleeve. I don't know why I do this, I consider myself a relatively good person, friend and girlfriend. To some people though, I'm not. Even to him.
You're in life so you can let go of the most important people in your life, it will be hard but in the end it will be for the best. Boyfriends aren't meant for seventeen year old girls who had a hard childhood, and who depend on only themselves to get them through the tough days. But a relationship is for a girl who knows what she wants, who is that man's everything and more.
I promised myself never to settle for less, and yet here I am being disposed of by a guy who I thought would treat me like my Grandpa taught me I should be treated.
I can't say I regret losing him, even though he was a part of me, it was for the best.
Even though nothing will ever replace him or what he had or heal my broken heart, I can always look back on our good times. I'll cry for days wishing it was back to the way it used to be, but at least now I have another trial to get through, another draft in my book of life I need to revise.

Something that made me realize breaking up was my last option for healing a part of my broken heart. Though some of it isn't true, it made me realize he was right, he could do better.

Every time i turn the conversation to something deeper than the weather i can feel you all but shuttin' down.
And when i need an explanation for the silence you just tell me you don't wanna talk about it now.

Bridge: 1
What you're not saying is coming in loud and clear we're at a crossroads here...

Chorus:
If i'm not the one thing you can't stand to lose
If i'm not that arrow to the heart of you
If you don't get drunk on my kiss
If you think you can do better than this then i guess we're done
Let's not drag this on
Consider me gone

Verse 2:
With you i've always been wide open like a window or an ocean. there is nothing i've ever tried to hide.
So when you leave me not knowin' where you're goin' i start thinkin' that we're lookin' we're lookin' at goodbye.

Bridge 2:
How about a strong shot of honesty don't you owe that to me...

Chorus:
If i'm not the one thing you can't stand to lose
If i'm not that arrow to the heart of you
If you don't get drunk on my kiss
If you think you can do better than this then i guess we're done
Let's not drag this on
Consider me gone.

Consider me a memory.
Consider me the past.
Consider me a smile in an old photograph someone who used to make you laugh.

If i'm not the one thing you can't stand to lose
If i'm not that arrow to the heart of you
Then i guess we're done let's not drag this on.
Consider me gone.
Consider me gone.
Consider me gone.
Just consider me gone.

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Lesson Learned?
I don't know the lesson, the only thing I do know is this-
Live your life the way you want to, I held on for as long as I could and loved as hard as I was able to. They can take it or leave it.
Just pray that they'll take you.